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focus
on self.
make
yourself relevant.
you,
are wasting away.
take control.
it's all
on your shoulders.
you can.
no,
you will.
love and love and love...j
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| 10:41am 08/10/2008 |
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i'm happy about my team for really the first time this year. they showed that the were capable of controlling a game and they didn't panic after going down early. they almost left it till the death but pulled it out in phenomenal fashion. that was a good confidence boost two days before sectionals. i'm exicited. i believe that we can bring home that elusive sectional title. it's our year. |
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| 12:59pm 01/10/2008 |
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dickens said it best...
"It was the best of times, it was the worst of times..."
in one aspect
i'm as happy as i've been.
on the otherhand
i'm falling faster
a fading further away.
i need some direction.
motivation.
it's pretty sad when you can't motivate yourself.
stuck in a rut.
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| 01:31pm 05/02/2008 |
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i have a habit of making myself scarce.
i hide from my friends
from my family
mostly from myself.
i suppose it stems from not wanting to deal with life.
that needs to change.
i guess this is the year
i need to grow up...
finally.
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| 09:10pm 25/07/2007 |
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mood:  sore
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so...
i'm in the market for legs.
a right and a left preferably
but i'll make do with what i get.
mine are attached at the hip...
barely.
bout had one removed last week by an overzealous goalie.
just doing his job i guess
as was i.
lost tonight in the semis.
3-2 in ot.
we were short.
and for some reason they weren't passing to me.
?
ended with 12 goals and 13 assists in 8 games.
not terrible no.
glad it's over tho.
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| nothing compares to another evening alone... |
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| 09:43pm 16/06/2007 |
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i am the cause of cancer.
the disease that slowly grinds you.
the piece that doesn't fit the puzzle.
the answer to all your problems.
but you don't take the time
to see the truth from the lies.
eat your words.
i hope you choke.
hallelujah
i'm delivered. |
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| i, among the ancients... |
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| 10:44pm 10/06/2007 |
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mood:  curious music: gonzo aesop strickland
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25 years.
for 25 years i've been around this earth.
as far as i can tell at least.
what have i accomplished?
not a whole lot.
i guess i can just take that for what it's worth
and make the next 25 worth a damn.
no regrets
worry about the past
and you miss the present.
may as well live a bit now.
for some reason i have confidence
like i can do anything i want
and i'm going to try.
what do i have to lose?
i mean really...
i can't let these 25 go to waste.
catch a wave while the surfs up.
love the light...j |
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| 03:21pm 15/05/2007 |
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i broke my foot...again. |
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| 02:53pm 07/05/2007 |
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let's turn this room into a pirate ship
and plunder
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| 02:37am 22/04/2007 |
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i feel like
i just got punched in the face.
no, maybe worse.
apparently my "best friends" just talk shit about me to each other behind my back.
what you know about that?
cute...real fuckin cute.
i'm not going to say a fuckin word.
i guess i'll be a friend when i stop ceasing to be myself.
goodbye josh.
it's been a helluva run. |
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| steady as she goes... |
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| 05:03pm 14/03/2007 |
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it's been awhile since i have written anything meaningful in this thing. to be quite frank nothing has really happened in my life that seems of importance. i sub pretty much everyday. i need to play more soccer. now that it is warm that will happen. i need to shed my winter weight that i put on madly this winter for some reason. hmmm...i need to find a job before the school year ends so that i'm not left without. i really need to get myself together and need to learn how to self-motivate.
some relationships are crumbling while others are blossoming. i guess that's life. you got to give to get. i'm ready for a revolution. i have a large bruise with teeth marks on my arm cos ericka bit me. don't worry, i bit her back. haha. had a 'vegas party' for stace and tiffmo for their birthdays on saturday. it was good times. everyone dressed up. check out the pictures if you want to.
http://www.slide.com/channel_finder?pcid=wVFSIMEKNEUBYCQFVNUo3XinlfU6zcri1D8Vd1cFKs8byqNrI1b-vg&view=large
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| what's your function? |
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| 03:39pm 01/03/2007 |
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mood:  blah
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i feel like a train
that's been derailed
cos the tracks
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| 11:59am 08/02/2007 |
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i'm pretty sure i am bi-polar.
my grandpa was...
as was he manic-depressive.
that man had all kinds of stuff.
parkinsons and diabetes as well.
damn.
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| 11:58am 08/02/2007 |
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Your Birthdate: June 11
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Spiritual and thoughtful, you tend to take a step back from the world.
You're very sensitive to what's going on around you, yet you remain calm.
Although you are brilliant, it may take you a while to find your niche.
Your creativity is supreme, but it sometimes makes it hard for you to get things done.
Your strength: Your inner peace
Your weakness: You get stuck in the clouds
Your power color: Emerald
Your power symbol: Leaf
Your power month: November
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| fashioned in fits... |
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| 10:18pm 06/02/2007 |
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mood: eh music: playradioplay!
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fuck state laws
that say
" you need a test every year"
to get a fuck glasses prescription.
what the fuck is that?
i had enough money to get my new lens
or get a eye exam.
not both.
my vision hasn't change in like 5 years.
it was just checked out a month ago
but not an official exam.
bogus.
oh, a dog got ahold of my glasses
chewed the shit out of them
one lens=fine, one lens=shite.
the girl at the optometrist was nice
"i'm sorry...'
i said "you are pretty sorry"
"fuck you and your lame state"
i'm an ass.
she was just doing her job.
haha.
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| 01:02pm 03/02/2007 |
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mood: blah music: gogol bordello
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having mono sucks.
i'm over it...
almost.
couple more days and the throat will be better.
then i'll be on my merry way.
that was fun while it lasted(sarcasm included).
when sleep means very little.
oh yeah, i forgot to mention i didn't play soccer today.
i tried to play wednesday and last 12 minutes.
we play 60.
haha.
still scored 7 goals.
ya know!
anyways...no real post.
nothings going on 'cept the mono.
lovelovelove...j |
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| it's all in your hands. |
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| 12:43pm 15/01/2007 |
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mood: contemplative music: dcfc
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it's the whether
or not
that's got me
feeling like
i've lost
what's true to form.
it's got me feelin
like i
lost it
awhile ago.
i'm tired of accepting
fallin on
my face everytime
i stand.
it's time
to wake
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more than
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| 12:25pm 28/12/2006 |
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mood: contemplative music: the hush sound - wine red
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sometimes when you bite off more than you can chew
you have to accept defeat
and just spit out your food.
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| 06:21pm 27/12/2006 |
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on a collision course
with destruction.
how did i not see it coming?
fighting a war on two fronts.
and i, the history major, didn't learn.
where do i focus my effort?
the greater threat is the war of attrition
i know it will be long and hard
but it is the fight i must win.
the other side is blitzkreig.
short, painful and complete.
which path do you fancy?
i don't want to fight anymore.
this shit is real and it's family.
i can't pick sides
but my hand is being forced.
this almost seems like a setup. |
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